So today I talked to my mom again about how I think about going home.. Finally have some kind of a plan for going home...
And truthfully, I'm really scared of standing up and facing my problems.. My everything is down to this...
I wish Mom could be wild like me. But she can never be. She has to protect and be responsible for her wild kid. That is why I feel more and more scared. Will this be a good choice? Will it make people cool the shits down and listen? Or would it eventually add up everything and blow my mom off her feet?
Yes I'm scared.
....
Dk is sharing music with me... Well we're at the stage that we share our music just for the shake of our sharing habit... We never even bother listen to the other one's music.. It's too big a gap and everything in between ... so that is no doubt we no longer share the same music mood...
I still think of Phúc. And how this happened today... How we were good friends and ups and downs and now I even hate him sometimes for being mean... I don't like fame. And people or anything I love, that somehow become famous, are no longer my interest.
Bought myself some pink stuff.
Why?
Never mind.
Fuck, everyone is getting married and I don't even have a bf to begin with.. So fuck it.. I'm out of here.
It will be a while until someone special can come and move my heart. God damn it someone anyone please just sweep me off my feet... I'm tired of standing on them on my own for so long....
Life is never a good picture. Once I start painting it, I realize I'm not good enough and that I'd rather have it all erased. But that is absolutely out of the question.
I tend to look at people's lives and wish I were in their shoes. But I never admit to the problems people all have.
Young at heart.
Loving this loneliness here by myself. I will get back home and be a normal girl with a chaotic life.
Please just let me be home.
At least I can talk to mom
And free internet.
Internet sucks in Aus.
Hạnh is still having problems. I wish I can help. What am I, loser?
Bah...
I'm into B.a.P.
Kaka sorry Seungho yah~ , I'm having an affair... Won't be long.. Mblaq just needs to release a new album and I'll be all over your face again... Gosh I really like his smiles on my wall every morning
Seung Ho yah~, get in your black "You" costumes, and get your ass in my room NOW!!!
hahaha i'm extending my teenage (no expiry date indicated yet >:) )
